Its hard to tell if i am experiencing an ascent or a descent. I try to engage in critical in the moment thinking but honestly Freire can’t help me through this shit. What’s remarkable though is the merging of realities as they compete for prime time viewing in my head. I am not sure if I am being fucked over yet on the other channel I see people who are as fucked as me. I can’t decipher the real world from what is in my head. Its crazy but I can’t even process the images in my head or the events because they lead to a certain emotions that need to be evaluated which only complicates other events. We need to weed out the competing realities so I can finally be able to make a move. Yet, part of the problem is that I have already made a decision and I have been making my way to an answer. my mind hurts!!!!