Day 1

Today I am really going to start working on myself. I think I am going to become an active listener. To be honest, I am afraid of doing introspection but my band did have an album called introspection. Also, when I look back at my life I realize that I have been given alot of tools for what I am trying to do, or become. The one banana monkey, old dude on the beach, the one, conversations with god, love, abortion, Ida mahone, etc… Its all been there because I am very sure that my family has attempted to become more but life got the best of them. So I am in a real good position to “make it,” whatever that means. First, I need to really listen to the words that people speak. I need to learn to love words and how they are used. I believe it is possible for someone to understand global capitalism through culture because we are so much integrated within it. 

 

As for other things, I will put them on hold for now and I will really work at getting to know people on different levels and not just the level I want them to be on. Its a scary endeavor but i dont want to be a punk. I hope this works.

I will post about it regularly because i need articulate my experiences

 

Aaron

Separation

Can you compartmentalize life? I read a lot material that tries to do this but it ultimately conflicts with other bodies of work. What I do find problematic is that there is a division between how people compartmentalize life and how life is actually lived. Scholarship has failed to greatly improve the lives of others. And now society faces another juncture in its evolution and I am scared to see what is going to come. The last time an epoch event took place 300 cities erupted in urban rebellion. Goes to show that more that one road is needed to reach our final destination. Yet, what is our destination. I want to be a good person but even that is obscure. But I am not sure if doing that is a complex thing. If I try to do right by others and by myself is that enough? I would say yes but our current historical context doesn’t allow so. Our American society is heavily embedded within global capitalism. And there isn’t enough talk about how our culture is a representation of the hegemonic political, mode of production, and post- system. The way we walk, talk, interact all encompasses global capitalism. Our relationships with one another is an extension of that system. When we date and love its a totally self-serving ordeal. We break up, hate each other, fight, play games which further divides people. This benefits the current political, economic, and social structure. You have a million MBA candidates who aren’t aware of effective demand so there influx into the labor market proves problematic as there aren’t enough jobs, so in order to survive they take over institutions that aren’t fully integrated into global capitalism and mirco manage non-profits and street vendors. Everyones a hustler but no one is a giver. You can sale water to a whale but you can’t give the whale a drop without a fee. 

 

I wonder if how I have sex is a representation of the global capitalist system. I need to think

Validation as a social time and space revolution

Validation is some dangerous shit. Its such a complex event but its a very simplistic result. A person looks good for the night and seeks validation for looking good. A boyfriend grabs flowers after work for his woman and seeks validation from her. Children look to there parents for validation for getting an A on a test. I want to consider if validation is a driving force in pursuit of ourselves as individuals or is it a purely communal event. There are general forms of validation that are easy to understand. I find the validation that comes with love is both communal and individualistic. It provides feelings of self-worth but it always gives apart of yourself to another person. This is a very healthy form of validation as long as the person on the end receiving it can give the same. If not, you run into alot of complications that ultimately can ruin relationships. Yet, what does this validation mean as a tool for change, within ourselves and in our human relationships? I hope to answer this in the coming years. For now lets explore a view or to of validation within the constraints of social time and space. 

Social time deals with the linear path of birth and death that every human being follows. This is very elementary because if we were to imagine a person’s life on a graph we would not see a horizontal unchanged continuous line. Instead e would see a line filled with peaks and valley’s that would have a starting point and end point. All that is given is death but the life we live can be totally perplexing to other people. I want to say that time is only measurable in death but leads to infinite possibility as people cope with their mortality. I often ask myself, if human were not aware of there own mortality would we hurt one another as we do? I do believe survival is imprinted into the human condition but I wonder if its amplified due to us being conscious. Time should be viewed as a limitless possibility. Its not a real constraint it just guides the path of life. 

Space on the other hand is able to be defined but it requires a level of insight to do so. For example, A box can be view through many different lenes. A person can see the use value, exchange value, social value, area, volume, environmental impact etc… of a box. So space is a question of how you define an object or even the subject. Which is problematic because its rare to find people who have the same lenes. But before inquiry can happen there needs to be a level of maturity in regards to understanding the material. 

Validation needs to be seen as part of time in that our own morality governs how people use it and viewed through a lenses that is fair and doesn’t misinterpret what validation is in different periods. also it can mean different things to other people but for our case we need to see it as a tool of fundamental change as its crucial to our struggle. This is a social time and space revolutionary tip bit. Thank you